Tuesday, February 02, 2010
It's already the month of Feburary..
My final year in NP..
I never really noticed the passing of time..
Not until now..
When FYP deadline is near and coupled with finals..
When universities are open for admission..
When its the time to make more decisions..
To continue studies or to go out into the working world?
What course to take and which uni to go?
What to work as, where and part-time or full-time?
All the decision making starts now..
Frankly, I don't know what to choose..
Almost 3 years ago..
I entered NP PHARM due to a case of "Anyhow Whack"..
All i knew is that i wanted to do something with science..
Up till now..
I know I still wan to do something with science and biology..
But I have absoultely no idea where I can go..
"Anyhow Whack" sounds like a good idea again..
The only course I wanted..
It seems that I might not be able to enter..
That's one of the saddening thing..
My friends are all going to go their separate ways..
Will I ever meet them again?
Will we be able to laugh and go crazy..
Or will be just be friendly strangers?
I have no idea what I want..
I thought that these 3 years might make me WANT something..
All these years..
I have no idea why and what I'm studying for..
I'm studying because its the law..
The right thing to do..
Advancing from primary to secondary..
Because one cannot do much with a PSLE cert..
Advancing from secondary to tertiary institution..
Because good jobs require something more than O level cert..
Entering poly..
Because of hands-on experiences and higher chance to get a better job in case I'm not able to enter university..
Now I'm stuck here..
Do I still want to study..
All my life is just revolving about studying..
All it does was to equip oneself with knowledge..
But what is the use of all these knowledge if I do not know what I want to do in the future?
These knowledge do not tell me what I want..
All the career prospects only tell me what I can be..
But is what I can be what I want?
Is what I want what I can be?