Is this my existence?

Wednesday, March 25, 2009

Time passed so fast,

without a word,

without a sound.

It's been so long,

I've always been alone in my heart till now.

No doubt I've been surrounded by family,

friends, loved ones and all,

but sometimes,

it jus doesn't feel the same.

They fill up portions of The Heart,

with their love, care and concern,

but it's just ain't the same.

There's always this hollow hole that is never able to be filled,

no matter what I throw in,

no matter how much care and concern others give me,

no matter anythng,

it just doesn't work.

What am I missing?

That brings about this bottomless pit?

What have I not gotten?

That causes the presence of this bottomless pit?

Why is this even happening to me?

I've watched others through the times,

helped them pass their lonely hours,

gave advice I deemed fit.

WHY?!

I just wanted that someone to help me fill that gaping hole.

Why is it so difficult?

I hate this.

I HATE THIS.

In short,

I hate me too.

Tuesday, March 24, 2009

SHEESH!!!!

i'm getting senile..

i swear..

really damn senile..=/

leave tag goddammit can spell until dogdammit..=.=

i do not now wads wrong with me..

dun ask me..

i getting old!!!

HAHA!

anyways..results came back le..

i didnt do daaaaaaaat well..

the two 6 cred module still okays..

5 credit de pharmacology..

as usual..got a C..

forever no better score den C for her module..

donno why

the rest all BBBBBBBBBBB!!!!

not toooooo baaaaad..

at least..

i managed to pass my pharmaco!

and hit my target..

kudos to midnight oil burning..=D

and for everyone who MADE me to study..

and to myself..

for managing to study..

and to myself again..

for breaking my record..

of 2.6 GPA.. =.=

crap..

lets hope next term also can lidat..

and next next term!!

den i no need fret le..=)

Saturday, March 21, 2009

LALALALA~

making the fonts bigger..

but i like the font too much to change it..~

particularly cos i dunno wad other fonts to use~

and i dun like the default ones..=)

...

okokays..shud blog abt ytd..

i got the retainers..

RETAINERS!

jamie..not retina..

retina is abt the eyes..

and i dun believe it can fit nicely on my teeth..=))

hurhur~ HAHA!

anyways..i cant speak properly with it..

its metal one..

alright~

half metal and half plastic..

and i'm given a hot pink box to store the 'tainers..

HOT PINK LEH!!!

i wanna faint..=X

nvm..

after dental went out with js mz gav and mel

to kbox..

2 days in a row..

of kbox..

money flying like donno wad..=X

and ytd..

i wont elaborate on wad happened ytd..

but it was super funny..

especially with gav and mz..

bth..

for no reason gav laugh..

when mz and i was singing..

and mz laugh

and mel laugh

and i laugh... ._.

and js snickered..=.=

den later i ask why dey laugh..

no one noe why gav laugh..

he himself also dunno..=.=

den gav solo high pitched song..

laugh till stomach pain..

=DD

den later went lan..

played dota one round

random game 3 rounds

dey went L4D

i went to clear my bill

watched them play

and concluded hunter loves gav..

everytime fly into gav's arms..

i tink the gav must hav eluded an aura of love and care.. ._.

den the hunter want dat godly aura..

so jump into his arms..

but everytime dat happens..

gav would scream like F***

guess the hunter was too fugly for his liking..=/

poor hunter..=X

Friday, March 13, 2009

Trial camp is over~

i do not want to comment on it..

becos it was not exactly a nice memory for me..

in terms of the comments i overheard by the GLs..

so yarhs~

So..

I'm dedicating this post to something...

which had been with me for more den 2 years..

it had finally decided to leave me..

and i agreed to let it go..

i was not exactly saddened dat it left me..

but i'm feeling so weird and funny without it..

but i probably wont miss it..

and i wont ever forget the times we had together..

Milli's braces

born nov 07

gone 13 march 09

may it rest in peace..

LOL!