Is this my existence?

Wednesday, November 28, 2007

wasn't really supposed to be here right now..

was intending to do my CATS self-reflection an den jap work..

but i guess old habits die hard..

with a lapp in front of me..i can seldom follow the instruction i give myself..

to actually do my work first den den enjoy later..

but heck acare it all now lah..

got my final common test dates..

haiz..all my tests all so cram

med together lor..

on the 7th is my CMB test..

on the 10th and the 11th..

my INPH and OBC respectively..

hav to rush to study liao..

cos i dun really intend to get another pathetic GPA for this sem..

i guess dat means dat i have a longer tym to study for the chem part..

but yea.. i rather dat came first so i can put more emphasis on my other subs or sth lidat..

but yea..cant help it..though..

stupid tymtable anyway..

anyway dat means that i hav more days off^^

can enjoy myself abit be4 going to the adventure camp i signed up for from the 14 to the 17..

but dat means dat i have to face my wisdom teeth surgery sooner..-.-

dun lik dat at all...

wont be able to talk so quickly..

cos cfm will have swelling der..bleah...

haiz..no idea wad gonna happen lah..

haiz...see lor...mus start preparing for the presentation for CATS..

not only dat sia.. for the common test also mus start from now liao..

jus hope can get better grades den all my tests now sia..

my test marks real pathetic sia..>.<

been thinking abt the past lately..
how i felt abt the past and all..
i realise dat i dun actually mean wad i said..
kinda regret it..
but i guess..
mayb its a good thing dat tym cant move bak..
with the shifting of the sands of tym..
i realise dat wad i've done is actually not wad i wanted..
if tym could be rewind..
i guess i wont say all dat i said to him ba..
but tym cant change..and dats wad actually made the memory so precious bah..
in this manner..i get to hold on to sth in life..
tots abt possibilities..
but honestly..i'm berating myself..
deep inside i realise dat i cant open to others..
even though its lik ages since 2nd June 2006..
one year 5 months 26 days ler..
but i still rmb the sights so clearly..
though i'm a pro-fessional sot0ng (excuse me..-.-)
dat is really sth i cant forget no matter wad..
not dat sinple as i tot..
guess it took me ages to get over it..
the loss i mean..
but wad do i end up with..
still the same old tots..
cant forget the tymes we had tgt..
though was simple studying tgt..
sweet memories dat can nv be erased..
but i guess i nv really gotten over how he managed to take off my mask..
the one and only mask dat i put on to allow myself to mix ard freely with fwens..
he one and only mask dat he took it off..
jus by those simple words..
cant believe it..
mayb i was weak den..
my strength wasn't there..my emotions weren't as steady..
having jus moved into sec 4 and starting to cope with everything there is..
the mask wasn't for anyone to been seen..
all my fwen (not the super close ones) had seen was a girl mixing ard freely with ppl..
but dats not the real me..
dats not..yet..he can see thru it..
my first impression..
wad an ass..
-.-
haha..i'm an ass..not him..
i guess wendy knew the real me bah..
i've been putting a mask for as long as i can rmb..
cos i tink i'm freaky in a way..
haha..hu cares..
but he knows when i wanna talk..
when he ought to talk..
when he shud get me to talk..
when he shud stop me from playing ard with the scissors..
when to lemme hav my way with the scissors..
when to offer me the scissors..
when to stay ard me..
when to leave me alone..
when to let me have my way..
but dats all in the beginning..
after dat..i guess i was pinning for all this 'whens'..
but it nv really appeared..
not anymore..
until after 2nd June 06..
during 07 when he tried to return..
i was stupid and foolish in the past..
but i'll lik to believe dat i'm not lidat anymore..
and now i regretted..
but all my fwens were in favour of me leaving him..
said dey dowan me to cont hurting myself..
but thinking bak..
i tink we were both hurting tgt..
though i nv once doubted dat we will nv last..
till now..it still hurts..
but the feeling is numbed..
i felt foolish for all i've done till now..
i dun tink we will walk tgt again..
deep inside i know it and he knows it too..
to be hurt deeply and treated lik a fool..
its not easy to force myself to accept it..
to be pushed away straight in the face..
it not easy for him to take it..
continuing with our current lives seems lik a good idea..
but u noe and i noe..
we will let our minds wander..
to the past memories we had..
and of which we shall nv have again..
nv again..
"its has not been easy for me.
I study hard to forget the past, but honestly,
studying makes me think of the times we had studied together.
I slacked on the studying to relieve the pain of the memories,
but i realised tht wasn't what i want.
I hate being so confused with stuff,
I cannot believe that leaving was the only choice at that time.
I regretted it.
I know the hurt and feel the pain,
maybe not as much as you did, but...
Even though you never replied my emails,
email-ing you, to me, was the only thing i could do whenever those thoughts surfaced.
Mayb you never read all these mails i sent,
but as long as I've sent the mails,
I feel that I'm actually telling all these to you personally,
............................................."
emails he sent always contain apologetic atmospheres..
reading them makes me feel lik..so weird..
dunno lah..mayb..
oh well..
these mails i recieved..
heart-warming..but i nv had the courage to reply with what i'm doing here..
while hes overseas..
i dun tink its my place to tell him wad is gg on here..
not my responsibilty..
cant bring myself to talk to him also..
cant cant cant cant..
haiz..
but i find myself waiting for his mails..
oh crap..
hope dat all goes well bah..
and dat i will soon forget..
all those memories dat was not supposed to be........

Monday, November 26, 2007

Lol..update my blog again..

surprising sia..

i manage to flip thru my INPH liao..

den mum was playing and ask me to off her lapp..

but i guess i ended up updating my bloggie..

okok..i got a shock todae..

i jus realised dat my CMB teacher set next fri as our CMB common test dae!!

sobs..and to think i got confused abt the DNA part..T.T

i wonder how i'm gonna study it with wendy this sun at mos burger..

i tink the same old scenario will happen..

i will stone and try to rmb all..

and she willbe lik reading thru super fast and committing it all to her memory..

and den she will be the first one to finish studying for her subs..

and i guess i'll be the first ne to leave the mos burger in search of food..

from old chang kee..

haha...i lik their hot puffy currypuff..

cos inside mos is lik super cold ma...

and i guess my dinner and lunch will be eaten there liao bah...

Oh..and i decided liao..

i planned to go the adventure camp dat will be held from 14 dec to 17 dec..

haha...when i told this to wendy..

she was lik cannot lah!!!

i 17th got exams still sia..

and i was lik...o.0

17 is hols liao my dear..haha..trust her to be so blur blur..^^

the fees is 25 bucks..

hope more ppl will join sia..

den can get to noe more ppl will have more fun..^^

but hopefully not much high elements..

wendy got fear of heights^^

whee~ and i noe i'm lik so gonna torture her if there is some high elements..^^

-evil grin-

arlalalalala~

today was a wild dae sia..

edah made me laugh lik mad woman..

but luckily for them..i managed to control my laughter..

its them hu went bonkers..

haha...i asked edah why she cant go for the camp..

den i heard she got baby function..

den i was laughing liao..

cos we all tink hay wire..

den became all so wrong..

suddenly become edah is pregnant with 3 kids..

dun ask me how it turned out this way..it jus did...

one of her baby is her clone..another is chen wei's and another is mine..

-.-

i really got no comment...from 5 kids..suddenly decreased to 3 kids..

all because i heard her family function to become baby function..

and somemore she say my kid is pure purpple sot0ng..i was lik..o.0

den laughter liao..

khi siao lah..for the whole dae..

i couldn't muster concentration to study lor..

study abit look at them and start to laugh..haiz...

wonder how i gonna survive my 3 years with them without dying of laughter..

and GLs somemore say laugh till lik me lidat can get abs..

i was so sian diao i dunno wad to say lor...

haiz..back to my oral powders and stuff..INPH is lik tml and i dun wanna get a bad result for it..

hopefully by reading the slides out to myself lik some idiot will help in my rmb-ing..

hope lah..but i still tink i sound and look lik an idiot..>.<

Sunday, November 25, 2007

Someone said dat my blog is dusty..

cannot blame me mah..

i only lik every fri need lappy in sch..

den every tues night will on lappy to do CATS..

so i lik only update my blog once a week..

be glad dat i even update it sia..>.<

haha..lik anyone will care lidat..^^

oh well..was surfing the net for work related stuff ytd..

and ended up looking for blogskin..

wanted to change the previous one..

though i love dat skin lots..

haiz..tink it needed a wee bit of colour..

so yea..chenged it to this one..

credits are at the bottom^^

Hmm...common test are coming soon already..

next month..

and i feeling the stress liao..

i study for my test as best as i can..

and i get such pathetic results..

haiz..

i'm starting to tink dat the way i study is the problem..

but how else can u study..

i cant jus read..

the words will nv get into my mind..

haiz..

basically i wish i hav a brain dat jus helps me to rmb all that i've read and listened to..

den wont it be so much easier..

but lik real it will happen...

this is reality after all...

haiz..so how..i donno wad's wrong with my studying method..

and i hav totally no idea wad to change in my way of studying..

mainly jus draw mindmaps and jus pure memo..

haha...wnder if dat ever work..

normally i jus read and its terrible..hope dat mindmap can help me better or sth lidat..

sat 24 nov..

went for the green carnival with Mii-chan, edah, jehanne, brenda, chen wei

jialong, kern, jun yun.

mmm...basically i feel dat the carnival is telling me things dat i've already known..

dat the earth is dying and wad not..

how the pollution is harming our environment..

and how it will harm us in the future..

wad we shud do to try to prevent this from happening..

its practically wad every carnival will try to protray..

to save the earth..

bascially i noe abt this..

many ppl noe abt this..

but the thing is dat will dey try to make it a reality?

no i dun tink so..

they say dat meat will give off more greenhouse gases den anything..

we are asked to cut down on meat..

but its not really possible is it?

ppl are using meat to make a fortune now..

making hamurgers and making steak for the ppl to eat..

i mean..isn't meat part of our daily diet?

and the great business men out there will actually use means and ways to try to increase their profit by selling meat to the public..

i dun tink its gonna help the earth..but will dey listen..

no..nth is better den money..

say we can help a part..

but if every small part played is covered and overshadowed by a huge part..

wads the use of trying our best to play dat small part..

i dun tink it will really help..

becos not everyone agrees on it..

dats wad i heard while i was there..

after listening to the person's convo..

i had no further comment..

if dats wad the person think..its no wonder our earth is dying..

no one is actually making an effort to help save the earth..

not dat i;m doing such a great part and all..

but i tink if u wan ur loved ones to be happy..

u would wan to make the environment they live in a better place..

and by saving the erath..

u can do dat..

i really donno wad the others might think..

but yea..oh well..

had enuf of ranting anyway..

wendy i hav no idea..

my common test timetable had no appeared..

so i cant cfm with u the days i can study with ya..

but i tink might be soon bah..

Saturday, November 17, 2007

Went out today to cwp for lunch..

well ok..brunch..

den later my mum and i went ard to metro and i bought my christmas gift for my dad..

its a christmas cum bdae gift since his bdae is lik 6 days from x'mas..

i've got him a -insert a gift of ur choice-..

i tink he really needs it lots..

his -insert item- is lik super bulky and so not nice..

with all the cards spilling out and with torn edges..

lol..gave a little clue liao^^

okok..

so this is a small portion of my x'mas gift shopping list...

buying for:

1.family (2 more ppl)

2. wendy

3.jehanne, edah & mii-chan

4. pending...

5. myself!

haha...no 5 i like it lots..

but i need to start saving..cant really depend entirely on my pay..

else i'll go super broke lik damn fast..

budget for 1. is a total of 150 bucks..

for 2. 30 bucks..

for 3. total of 50 bucks..

omg..for no. 5 budget of 10 bucks..

haha..else later no more $$$..

k lor..today was lik super boring..

studied my stupid chem..

the few chapters except for benzene ring..

still cant get head or tail of wad its talking abt..

mayb i shud ask ye ye or sth^^

went web hopping..and found quizbox..

took some quizzies and got some interesting answers..

lookie!!

In the fish tank
Here is the analysis:

You are strong, brave and decisive. You are good at management and leading.

Sometimes your husband/wife and children will find you a bit on the strict side, but you'll take care of your family to the best of your abilities.

When there is a problem, you'll face it with no fear.

You are a true homely idol.

(Huh? lik LoLs~ wad idol seh..><)

Are you still thinking about your ex?
Here is the analysis:

Your ex clearly broke your heart and you haven't yet moved on.

Remember that time heals all sorrows, so look positively towards the future.

Don't be blinded to the love that might be surrounding you right now.

(meh..how true can dat be........)

Hot or Not? (for girls)
[Part 1] Self Confidence: 70% -> You're confident.

[Part 2] Sensory Perceptions: 62% -> Somewhat sensitive to stimulation around you.

[Part 3] Body Language: 60% -> Quite good at utilizing on occasions.

[Part 4] Conversational Skills: 73% -> You can fit in with society.

[Part 5] Empathy For Others: 80% -> An extremely kind and warm person.
You are a typical girl, like the majority.

(I'm ordinary!!)

The Clothes You Wear
What others see from your style:

You are artistic, confident and don't like to be controlled. You enjoy traveling, and dressing smartly helps you move around more efficiently.

(I dun lik to be controlled~ but i dun enjoy travelling..i get sick..>.<)

What others see from your ties:

You enjoy being alone. You like to life the simple but good life, and you cherish your freedom. You are thoughtful, confident and uninterested in glamour.

(Being alone is fun~ do i have freedom in the first place?)

What others see from your belts:

You are a frank, assertive and sometimes flamboyant person. You are friendly and want to be accepted by everybody.

You like to have fun, to be free, and to live a comfortable lifestyle.

(Huh..ppl nv say i friendly der..>.<)

What others see from your shoes:

You are a person who loves simplicity and is sincere and open.

You are pleasant to be with, easygoing and always in a good mood.

You neither want to control nor be under someone else's control.

You don't care much about how you look, and know that it's what's inside someone's heart that's important.

(shoes can tell this much meh? muai inner feelings? chimology..)

What others see from your earrings:

You are probably an independent and strong-willed person. Fairness is important to you, and you always stand up for what you believe in.

You are friendly and get along well with people.

(i dun wear earrings..bluff ppl der..)

The last analysis:

You are probably a clever and adventurous person.

You love to learn new things, and enjoy socializing with friends.

Although you enjoy your freedom, you cherish peacefulness and like to spend time alone with your thoughts.

(me = sotongish loner..jus lik i was in sec sch~)

What is your favorite fruit?
Here is the analysis:

You are vigorous yet gentle.

You appear to be mysterious to those who don't know you very well because you don't often reveal your feelings.

You like to socialize and are popular among your peers.

(o.o -speechless-)

Swimsuits reflect your personality

Here is the analysis:
You are reasonable and mature.

It's not easy to trick you because you are intelligent, confident and have high self-esteem.

You love your freedom and never follow silly fashion trends.

(Tricked, was tricked, been tricked, going to be tricked again..>.<)

How do you react to compliments?
Here is the analysis:

When you hear someone compliment you, you return the same compliment.

This suggests that you are carefree and independent. You never ask for favors, preferring to help yourself instead.

You like to take the lead.

How well do you get along with others?
Here is the analysis:

You truly believe in friendship. You get along well with others, and those who are around you are happy to be with you, too.

You love to be surrounded by friends and you'll do anything you can to help them without expecting anything in return.

When your friends are smiling, you're as happy as you can be.

The favorite place in your home
Here is the analysis:

You are imaginative and colorful.

You attract people just by the way you talk. This can make some people feel jealous.

Your Handwriting
Here is the analysis:

You are a sociable and outgoing person. You enjoy attending parties and seek attention from people wherever you can.

The closer you place your words together, the more afraid you are of being left alone.

Loneliness is your one great fear.

(nah..me welcome loneliness..makes me feel alone..)

What's on your mind?
Here is the analysis:

You'll drop everything to be with the partner of your dreams, and you'll give their sentimental presents rather than expensive ones.

Nevertheless, your spontaneous nature does have a limit,

and when the romance is over, you'll head back to work to pick up the pieces

Rings on Fingers
Wearing no rings:

Wearing no rings at all suggests that you want to live a simple, no-frills life.

You are sincere, trustworthy, peaceful, clever, hard-working and always want to learn new things.

You tend to shy away from crowds and avoid conflict whenever you can.

Your Favorite Ice Cream Flavor
Chocolate:

You are a sensitive person and often find yourself daydreaming about your past and future.

You are quite conservative and the values that your parents and teachers instilled in you still play an important part in your decision making.

(chocolate hav to do with daydreaming..^^ jus realise dat^^)

The Pattern of Your Tableware
White:

Simplicity is your signature style.

You like to stick to your daily routine and don't mind at all that there's not much excitement in your life. You are sensible and well in control of your emotions.

Your Favorite Zoo Animal
Bird:

Freedom and independence are the touchstones of your character.

You enjoy meeting with people.

In your spare time, you like to visit different places depending on how you feel at the time.

The happiest moments in your life are when you are looking at the world from a bird's eye view

No one can take better care of you than yourself.

Seeing the weakness of others will only make you feel stronger.

So your ideal choice is that young trainee.

He'll appreciate your protection, and you'll appreciate his appreciation.

Get to know yourself better
Your view on yourself:

Other people find you very interesting, but you are really hiding your true self.

Your friends love you because you are a good listener.

They'll probably still love you if you learn to be yourself with them.

(dats y i say i'm a loner^^)

The type of girlfriend/boyfriend you are looking for:

You like serious, smart and determined people.

You don't judge a book by its cover, so good-looking people aren't necessarily your style.

This makes you an attractive person in many people's eyes.

Your readiness to commit to a relationship:

You are ready to commit as soon as you meet the right person.

And you believe you will pretty much know as soon as you might that person.

The seriousness of your love:

You like to flirt and behave seductively.

The opposite sex finds this very attractive, and that's why you'll always have admirers hanging off your arms.

But how serious are you about choosing someone to be in a relationship with?

(nope..not serious..heck..i dowan even wanna get into a relationship..)

Your views on education:

You may not like to study but you have many practical ideas.

You listen to your own instincts and tend to follow your heart, so you will probably end up with an unusual job.

The right job for you:

You're a practical person and will choose a secure job with a steady income.

Knowing what you like to do is important.

Find a regular job doing just that and you'll be set for life.

How do you view success:

You are afraid of failure and scared to have a go at the career you would like to have in case you don't succeed. Don't give up when you haven't yet even started! Be courageous.

What are you most afraid of:

You are afraid of having no one to rely on in times of trouble.

You don't ever want to be unable to take care of yourself.

Independence is important to you

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Who is your true self:

You are mature, reasonable, honest and give good advice.

People ask for your comments on all sorts of different issues.

Sometimes you might find yourself in a dilemma when trapped with a problem, which your heart rather than your head needs to solve

(i always tot i was the trouble maker..didnt noe i can solve problems too...)

The Real You
Here is the analysis:
You've got great self-confidence and you're full of charm.

Most guys who get to know you will be attracted to you.

You are far from sweet and proper; your intriguing personality fascinates them.

Most guys find it easy to fall for a girl like you.

You really care about other people's feelings and are quite serious about the issues that affect your life.

You are sincere, and your concern for the well-being of others makes many people want to be your friend.
You are a bright, cheerful and bubbly person.

You are thoughtful and considerate, and like to have fun.

Everybody feels comfortable around you because of your pleasant nature.

When you walk into a room, people's eyes are likely to be drawn to you because of your charm.

Guys see you as being a thinker and a careful person. T

hey will be really attracted to this quality in you, but you need to learn to speak your mind, otherwise people will find you too shy and quiet.

Learn to relax and lighten up--it's okay to have fun sometimes.

When you learn to develop your fun-loving side, guys are going to flock to your side.

Your boyfriend thinks that you are a real doll but this is not a totally positive thing.

Sometimes you can be a bit too sweet, and come across as being helpless.

If you're like this too frequently, your boyfriend and other people are likely to get tired of you having to rely on them all the time

What's your personality love style?
Here is the analysis:

You desire a love that will last forever.

You are quite serious about finding this type of love, and that's why you think carefully about the men that you meet before deciding whether you could really love them.

You don't just develop a crush on someone overnight: you look at a person's personality and other aspects of their life before deciding to form an attachment.

If a guy doesn't meet your expectations, you would rather be alone.

Your love has to be perfect. Be careful though, you could be missing out on some worthy relationships because your standards are so high

What type of personality do you have?
Here is the analysis:
A confident person

You like to do activities on your own.

You are confident and that's why you don't care what other people think about you.

You are ambitious and often worry about your future.

You don't like to be a follower because you like to be independent - this means you are always trying your best to be the leader.

You are attractive to other people because of your confidence and intelligence

What does being a friend really mean to you?
You value your friendships: 35%

You value your friendships quite a lot but you don't like to show your feelings to others.

You would rather keep your feelings to yourself than share them with your friends.

You might get a pleasant surprise if you are more open about caring for people - they will probably let you know that you're special to them

Jealousy Test
Jealousy Level: 55%
You are a jealous person but you try not to let it show

You often get very jealous of others but you are successful at controlling your emotions publicly. When you feel that other people are winning things that you deserve, you get very upset, but you won't hurt anybody else by making a scene.

Your jealousy is private.

The Squirrel
Here is the analysis:

You are considerate so they will only get your smile as a reply

Your Hidden Talent
Here is the analysis:
The Artist

You love freedom and want to follow your heart's desires.

You might not be at your best when dealing with other people.

Once you are given the opportunity to work your chosen way, your gift will shine.

A tip for you is not to concentrate too much on your own work, but widen your focus and consider the opinions of other people.

Who is your dream guy?
Here is the analysis:

According to your answers; if you are not kidding, you are too complicated. Sorry, we are unable to offer the analysis.

Press Back button on you browser, check ONE question that you were not completely sure and try again with a different answer that you think it would be correct

(Lmao..my answer is too complicated such dat there is no answer seh..LOLs!

super funni..cant stop laughing after reading this..=D

and i got this answer twice!!)

Who is your dream guy?
Here is the analysis:

He is always happy. Sports are his favorite.

He enjoys parties and being part of the crowd.

You can be recruited as his girl if you enjoy being around his bunch of friends, doing the things he does. If you are into sports, it'll be even easier.

Pick One
Your future friend:

You have a big sister confidence and leadership.

So you friends are mostly vulnerable and always need your help.

You can't resist helping these people and eventually you all will become good friends.

Your travel plan:

You will travel to exotic countries like Tibet, India, Egypt.

You enjoy visiting ancient ruins, lost woods and spending time in a hut in peaceful neighborhood.
Your future financial status:

You are very good at saving and sometimes you are even stingy.

The reason you want your teeth to grow longer is because when you can't eat, you can save even more on food. Once your money is deposited in the bank, there's no way that you will withdraw it out just to spend on luxuries.

The last period of your life:

You can't stand being a lonely old lady so you will spend the last days of you life being a kind loving grandparent so that the kids will love to have you around

How well will you survive in this wild world?
Here is the analysis:

Because of your kind nature, you always find it hard to turn down people in need.

You always want to do so many things at once but eventually you might not achieve anything. Try to focus on one thing at a time and you will surely be successful.

The Bridge
Here is the analysis:You are too careful to reveal yourself to others. No one can tell what is under your smiling

Your Sixth Sense
Your Sixth Sense Score: 60%You are too careful. Listen more to your inner feelings and take a chance. You will then find the pleasure in life.

The House
Here is the analysis:

You are sensitive and indecisive at times.

You are a freedom lover and a strong person.

Once you have a problem, you need a friend with you. You are an ambitious person.

You will avoid being alone and seek the company of others whenever possible.

You love excitement and create it wherever you go.

You always have plans on your mind. This might cause a lot of stress if things don't go the way you expect. You see the world as it is, not as you believe it should be.

You are not a romantic person by nature. It also safe to say that others don't see you as a flirt. You don't think much about yourself.

Your Working Style

You have a great deal of warmth, but may not show it until you know a person well.

You keep your warm side inside, like a fur-lined coat.

When you are care, you care deeply, but are more likely to show your feeling by deeds rather than words.

You are very faithful to duties and obligations related to things or people you care about.

You take a very personal approach to life,

judging everything by your inner ideals and personal values.

You stick to your values with passionate conviction, but can be influenced by someone you care deeply about.

Although your inner loyalties and ideals govern your lives, you find these hard to talk about. Your deepest feelings are seldom expressed; your inner tenderness is masked by quiet reserve.
In everyday activities you are tolerant, open-mind, flexible, and adaptable.

If one of your inner loyalties is threatened, though, you will not give and inch.

You usually enjoy the present moment, and do not like to spoil it by rushing to get thing done. You have little wish to impress or dominate. The people you prize the most are those who take the time to understand your values and the goals you are working toward.

You are interested mainly in the realities brought to you by your senses, both inner and outer. You are apt to enjoy fields where taste, discrimination,

and a sense of beauty and proportion are important.

You have a special love of nature and a sympathy with animals.

You often excel in craftsmanship and the work of your hands is usually more eloquent than words.
You are twice as good when working at a job that you believe in,

since your feeling adds energy to your efforts.

You see the needs of the moment and try to meet them.

You want your work to contribute to something that matters to you-- human understanding, happiness, or health. You want to have a purpose beyond your paycheck,

no matter how big the check. You are perfectionists whenever you deeply care about something, and are particularly suited for work that requires both devotion and a large measure of adaptability.

The problem for you is that you may feel such a contrast between your inner ideals and your actual accomplishments that you may burden yourself with a sense of inadequacy.

This can be true even when you are being as effective as others.

You take for granted anything you do well and are the most modest of all the types, tending to underrate and understate yourself.
It is important for you to find practical ways to express your ideals; otherwise you will keep dreaming of the impossible and accomplish very little.

If you find no actions to express your ideal, you can become too sensitive and vulnerable, with dwindling confidence in life and in yourself.

Actually, you have much to give and need only to find the spot where you are needed

Which colors do you like most?
Here is how you prioritize certain aspects of your life.More important matters come first on the list below:
Death
Marriage
Friends and relationships
Career
Passion

Omg some so true some not so..

lmao..to think i spent so much tym on this thing..haha..

super bored cant blame me..

i tink i took up lots of space on my blog sia^^

oh well..

i tink i hav to go eat liao..

my chocolatey~

Tuesday, November 13, 2007

Showstopper Finals!!!

Finally showstopper is over ler..which means 13 nov is over!!

haha...no more intensive dance practice..

no more practice yay yay yay!!!

lets see...for the showstopper i was to collect the votes for the centre row..

haha...so be4 the whole thing started we went for our mini briefing..

and i tio a bucket that was supposed to come from the labs i tink..

u noe the yellow buckets..

dey have been autoclaved..so its safe to use i guess..

even if its not also no use liao..cos i've been hadling it lik for so long..

haha...

so ard 4 the audience startedd to arrive..

i saw mii-chan and wai lok coming in..

den later i saw mummie and her frens come on also..

haha..was so happy to see mummie again..

but as usual..i didnt spot her until she was lik in front of me den i saw her..>.<

ps mummie u got a veri blur sotong as ur nv er^^

haha...whee~

but really was happy to see mummie^^

lets see...den after a while more den later the showstopper 2007 started ler..

the constentants came out and performed..den later there was the Belle and Beau contest..

haha...i saw a lot of GLs in the Belle and Beau contest^^

sad those collecting the votes could vote..

haha..den i started to go collect the votes of the audience with the yellow bucket..

then went to calculate the votes..

den the emcee was lik if the Belle wasnt Sarah..he would dance the chicken dance..

den we were lik laughing den he corrected himself...

he said that he would drag the GLs down to dance with him..

and den we were lik HUH!!! OMG SIAN!!!

haha...we were all laughing away..

ok..den in the end..showstopper winner is Jamie & Milton..

Belle is Sarah and Beau is Arnold..

haha..nice rite..

so after dat was a performance by a lecturer..

with his 'magic tricks' and 'songs'..

during dat tym we GLs were preparing for our performance dat was to go on later..^^

den there was the prize giving also..haha...

den it was our turn...

ShiPei went out in the first to get everyone to do the spongebob thingy..

den the Ella grp went out and dance..

they had more expressions and were lik wowing the crowd..haha...good for ya^^

den Ella came bak and my turn came..

was part of the hip hop grp..

haha..enjoyed dancing immersly though it was jus for a short while..^^

but i noe i screwed up my dance steps for my legs..

typical lah..

leg pain and i was favouring my injured leg..

was lucky i managed to stand up properly..

if i were to fall..><

i wonder wad will really happen sia..

cos my leg hurt when i bend down..

no choice hav to carry on..

else will be veri weird..

haha..

mummie said dat she was busy taking note of me and didnt look at ye ye..

haha..xie xie mummie for giving me ur attention..^^

but i still a bit weird..

but i still love the hindi dance better..

den later had the mass dance..

was really high liao..bend knee too much and got another burst of pain..

haha..lucky no one noticed it^^

but dat was real fun..

though i tink our moves a bit messed up...^^

later really went wild for the Love machine song..

haha...den after dat..we returned the instruments for the band set bak to the SCC..

which is song composing club^^

haha...Hmmm...had a debrief..

den went off..

the rest of the ppl went to KAP to hav dinner..

i decided not to squeeze with them and went bak home..

and den went to mac to dabao food home and eat..^^V

finished fast and den did my CATS stuff...den printed it out after editing..

den orh orh ler..

was a hectic day..but really it was veri fun i enjoyed myself..

haha...i noe still got another opportunity cos still got the FOC dance^^

dat one my hols will be packed full of it ler bah^^

Thursday, November 01, 2007

Everything is almost going wrong..

i'm surprised...

nth dat i'm doing is correct..

take todae for example..

supposedly to have OBC practical..

i brought my CMB pract book along..

and on tues..when i'm supposed to have CMB pract..

i took my OBC pract book..

there's sth wrong with me ler...

either i'm going brainless or i'm going crazy..

i tink shud be both lah..

too much of everything coming to me..

all getting to me now ler..

i've tried to handle and manage my tym..

i got curfews and everything..

reaching home ard 1030 plus or minus on days i have dance practice or cca...

as long as i hav to stay late..i make it a point to leave early..

so dat i can have ample rest...

but it seems dat its not working pretty well..

i'm still not getting enuf slp..

and i'm getting more and more tired by the day..

i rarely use the lapp now..only when i need to type out notes..

or some questions and answers for the interviews we had during lesson time and all dat..

or lik wed i try to occupy myself studying for the weekly jap test..

but sometimes i get so pissed and tired at it dat i would jus resort to playing games..

weds are super boring for me anyway..

could'nt really concentrate in class...

hopefully i can buck up..

i'm going on..still going on..

at least i still ppl in the same boat as me..

not dat i'm being sarcastic or wadsoever..

but yea..

it kinda helps when u noe dat someone is being in the same situation as u..

i still can tok to mei or wendy or edah..

best trusted..^^

oh yea...speaking of wendy..

wendy damn bad..

see me in co-op nia den say she saw ghost..

evil evil solar bear..

bleah..

Oh well...hopefully everything works out fine..

still dun wanna et too involved with stuff...

holding bak..and not really intending to move forward..

typical me..

i'm forever stagnant..

and so are my results..^^

mmm~

oh yea..

this sat is the GLs post camp outing activity..

haha...at sentosa..

now how long haven i been there...

i wonder..itink super long liao ba..

i lik si beh no childhood lidat der^^

going to the beach there after going to see the attractions..

would have rather let it be a free and easy gathering..

turned out to be an outing..

oh well..not going to complain..

ppl put in tons of hard work..

i can see my yewey dear calling ppl asking and reminding them for things..

but hor..

i still tink its a wee bit ex..

20 bucks without initial subsidy..

after subsudy from sch will be ard 10 bucks..

haiz..still heafty leh~

i gotta tighten the strings of my wallet ler...

shud not have spent my money on the 3 comics i bought today..T.T

but i've been waiting for ages to get those comics..

oh well..

i'm going broke ler..

20 bucks for the outing...10 bucks for my hip hop dance pants..

light green somemore..>.<

dun really lik dat colour..

den white tank top also need to buy ler..

lets say 10 bucks..

den the cap leh..

8 bucks say lah..

total almost 50 bucks ler..>.<

my hard earned money..T.T

heart pain..

but..

ah..nvm..

i shud be getting my pay soon..

not alot ba..since sch started and with dance pract..

i didnt have lots of time to go bak and help out..

so i shud hav worked mayb ard 50 hours?

hopefully..

den i might be able to get -insert ur imaginated amount-..

-hopes hopes-

oh well..

i gotta go back to typing the questions and answers for the interview..

we had an interview with a pharmacist from unity at bukit timah plaza..

and i'm gonna chiong it out..cos i'm not sure when they needing it..

and tml i tink we are seeing the teacher again..

i also not sure seh~

oh well...

ja ne~

oyasumi^^