Is this my existence?

Sunday, June 29, 2008

mmmm~~

today was not too bad..

woke late though..T_T

went to the centre for some informal reinforcement of way of work..

and etc..

not going to elaborate..^^

den went for bowling..

i declare dat my standard drop lik hell..

been getting 80+ max..

cant seem to get dat specific angle and spin..

damn damn..T_T

anyways..later went to eat..

korean food^^

followed by a trip to M1 at cwp..

got myself my new baby..

sony ericsson C902?

cant rmb the damn model..

but i noe can take pic lik siao..^^

haha..now cahrging both psp, new and old hp..

damn..multiplug i scared later go bomb..

lol..well anyways..tired liao..

going to do abit more report..

hav to read again..

cos i tink i done some parts wrongly..=/

oh yea..

further more ideas abt last post..

as huishi said..

she really acts lik a "darling angel"

but yet..has a heart of a devil..

u noe dat kind of ppl...

really sucks..

cos dey try to be nice..

but in fact dey are not helping..

biao mian shang only..

anyways..

i going to continue to throw my darling temper..

its mine to throw anyways..

the most u complain nia..

dats the way i am and i'm not going to change it cos u dun lik it..

damn u..writing abt this made me angry again..

mmm..

mabbe i shud consider wad huishi said..

end of 3 years..

become alumni liaos..

den kan her..

thrash everything out..

in the bad way..

oh wells..

lets see how u treat me..

an eye for an eye..

a tooth for a tooth..

and an evil for an evil..

u will see how evil i can be..

soon......

Saturday, June 28, 2008

mmmm...

not been updating my blog for couple of days le..

no idea wad to say..

jus felt dat nowadays mood swing veri violent..

and coupled with sore throat & headaches..

really not a great combo..

results lik farking shit..

hais

to be expected larhs..

dun feel lik going near anyone at all..

so ppl srry for my crudeness..

but yea..

i need to be left alone at times..

dun come near me..

later u tio burn up..

fri was really..

i donno how to say it..

but well during path..

i was having this coughing spasm..

and throat pain..

dun dare to use voice too much in case it gets worse..

so well..

were goin thru this stupid CT paper..

and tio picked to answer question..

bai tuo lah!!

the whole class was super guai and so quiet..

pin drop also can hear..

so jus used smaller voice to read the freaking question and answer..

den this kns piece of -insert word- started to go ballistic..

and say..so soft nobody can hear u..

i cant even hear u so u hav to speak louder..

-insert word- u larhs..

if u cant hear me how come u noe i finished speaking liao den u say all dat..

and how u noe EVERYONE cant hear me..

u super thing can noe wad everyone is saying izzit..

pls lor..no one complain u complain for wad shit..

zzz..

well anyways..she wan louder so i gave her louder lor..

raise voice wad..scared she later cannot hear..

den come kao bei kao bu again..

and so wad happened leh..

"Mi.llison come here. I want to talk to you."

lol..i not ur personalised doggie cans..

and u wan to talk to me does not mean i wan to talk to u wad..

jus go lor..

and first thing she ask me is why i throw temper at her..

come on larhs..

u wan me to SPEAK LOUDER wad..

so i jus raise voice lor...

wad u expect..

u wan me to use microphone meh..

knn..

and she rattered on...

blah blah blah..

den she said..

"why have u changed? last time u were such a nice girl.

U can come and tell me if there is any problem.

The problem is with you or with me?"

...pls lah..i so lazy to answer her..

dun even wanna waste saliva answering her...

so jus shrug at every question..

cos i tink u will jus peng at my answers..

and den later refer me to dunno wad freak..

not so stupid to risk dat..

come come question answer time..

the thing is dat i nv change cans..

i all along is lidat ones..

is jus dat i nv show this side of me..

cos U changed dats why u can see this side of me..

and i was NEVER a nice girl..zzz..ur wrong for seeing me this way..

and quoting edah..:"my problem is in front of me."

really felt lik saying dat..but i tink later she heart atk i dowan..

and pls..u ask the last question is stupid ones..

the problem is CONFIRM not me..

so all dat remains is u lor..^^

dun tink u ask this type of question i will cfm say:

"oh the damn farking problem lies with the ex-nice girl me."

come on larhs..u say u dowan to see me throw temper..

dun cover ur eyes when i throw these temper lor..

lidat u cant see me throwing temper..

pls ah..

even my parents also nv say these to me..

dey jus lemme throw temper..

the most later tio kan nia..

stewpig..

but i wonder wad happened to hui shi..

she also tio..

but she is strong..^^

hope nth goes wrong^^

oh well..waste my time blogging abt such a person fallen grace from my list of great teachers..

back to doing more half-hearted report for pathology..

cos tio kan..

haven been doing any of the work she asked the class to do..^^

later she not happy again i hav to listen to all those crap again..

Sunday, June 22, 2008

Haven been blogging much..
felt like i'm jus wastin my time away..
went out on fri to celebrate daniel's bdae..=)
i had perfectly good time control..
happy bdae in advance wor..daniel..^^
jus dat i nv wanted to follow it..
went bowling..den arcade..den walk walk..
i hate to follow a specific set of stuff..
not too bad..at least the arcade thing was fun^^
why follow so strictly when u can hav the whole world of change at ur feet?
haha..the bishi-bashi..daniel me and jamie/irfan/morgan was playing..
i see the need to do all my work nice and good..
wondered how many times dey died..=) managed to continue even though dey were out after a while..
but i cant get myself to heave my brain and start it cranking..
i love dat game can..can get dat score cos i used to play it years ago lik a fanatic..^^
i open my work..
cos banging on the buttons can vent anger and bad feelings ma^^ so become experienced liao..=)
and sigh..
well anyways went to bowling alley at marina..
i get so tired of doing work..
i dunno wad to say can..the lanes are lik -insert word-..
is study going to be my whole life..?
got uneven lanes..i even cut my thumb on the cracks on the hse balls..
i see the amt of work i hav to do..
power can..but i managed to get the best score!!
it may not be alot..
i was the first!!!
but i jus dun feel lik doing it..
from the back..haha..
i wanted to rebel..
den later went to taka..
i wanted to jus dump everything aside..
was to go to seoul garden for dinner..but den too ex..
i dun lik half hearted work..
400+ bucks for 14 ppl's dinner..
but i'm doing it..
was -insert word- expensive can..=/
its showing..
so changed our minds and went to pepper lunch for dinner..^^
"half-hearted" is the word screaming at me from my hmk..
nv been there be4..but the food there was nice..
take my report for example..
though the price there were a little on the high end..at least for me..=/
i wanted to complete..
den went to buy cake secretly..^^ for daniel..
but the desire to complete it fades so fast..
haha..lucky i carry my log bag and still got lighter inside..^^
after an hour of compiling and reading other sources..
i tink it was blackforrest cake..nice nice..^^
i'm ready to start on the report..
though i dun fancy blackcurrent..=/
but at the moment of time..
or was it bluecurrent?
i felt like giving up already..
anyways...doesnt matter..=/
i did half way..
already digested at this point of time le..=/
felt so sick of it..
it was fun though^^
had an impulse to jus leave everything as it was..
anyways...happy bdae daniel^^
i rather do some hsework here and there..
rather help out in the hse..
rather go out and stone..
den jus sitting in front of the lapp and doing nth..
i just cant get myself to do work..
in games..
i used to love them alot..
but i wasn't in the game for 5mins i felt so bored..
so bored of everything so fast..
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got bored of activites..
got bored of ppl..
got bored of being me.

Tuesday, June 17, 2008

milli realises dat she has been neglecting her blog..

she is super seldom online cans..

hais..

really nth to say..

mayb stop blogging liaos..=/

dang..real tired..

buaiis for now..

Wednesday, June 11, 2008

Hooyea..

jus finished GLs..

dead tired..

i tink i pulled a leg muscle..

knn..

damn pain..

and my hp cos tio water from hose..

now completely cant get any network..

so ppl..pls dun call or sms me..

i cant recieve!!!!

fudge the water in the hp..=/

anyways..today tio shock can..

i tot first hol training ji tao break our record sia..

only 8 ppl on time..

den eventually ppl start coming..

late of cos..

sia lah..

i rmb for us is so many ppl come de..

den in the end got 22 ppl appear..

still okays larh..

but...

still a record..

first day this little liao..

i wonder wad will happen in the future..=/

anyways..

i went to my brother's blog..

was feeling bored..

and i saw a quiz!!

YAYY!!

and its lik 100 questions de..

and i tink i did some of them be4..

haha..but bored ppl cant be beggers^^

01. What’s the connection between you and the last person that called you?
Err..cant really check my hp..but i tink it was my mum..or my brother..or it could be anyone else..=/ nvm..i noe i'm not really answering the damn question..=/

edit: my cousin..=)

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02. Do you ever turn your cell phone off?
NV!!! but this moment it is off..but i dying the card and the interior of the hp..its wet..=/

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03. What happened at 10.00am today?
err..GLs training!! it was attendance taking and a talk on punctuality..=)

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04. When did you last cry?
Err...recently..

too freaking stressed up with too many stuff..

man its the first time i cried after 1 year?

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05. What is your favourite thing to eat with peanut butter?
cookies..bread..

eating it alone is nice too..coupled with a nice cup of coffee..=)

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06. What do you want in your life right now?
my own space..i'm having a little..but i wan more!!

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07. Do you carry an umbrella when it rains, or just put up your hood?
I jus walk in the damn rain unless there is someone willing to share their umbrella..

dun really use hood..=/

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08. What’s your favourite thing to have on your bed?
my mini pillow!! heex..=)

cant slp without it^^

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09. What bottom are you wearing now?
Shorts larh..duh..

FBT ones^^

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10. What’s the nicest text in your inbox say?
I cant see my inbox!!! but i tink its from jamie and amanda..=)

edit: by edah where she lend me her shoulder for crying..

and by jamie and amanda whereby dey said dey love me..

haha..=)

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11. Do you tend to make a relationship complicated?
mayb..i wont noe..=/

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12. Are you wearing anything you borrowed from someone?
wad for? currently wearing class shirt and FBTs..

no borrowing..=/

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13. What was the last movie you caught?
Narnia..with my mum..=)

and den day be4 dat was made of honour with yewey irfan and jamie..

tml going to watch another again..=)

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14. What are you proud of?
nth..^^

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15. What does the oldest text message in your inbox say?
Ps..not too sure..hp not on la damn u..=/

edit: errr...it was by my di..

indicating his audi acc and pass..

for me to help him with his audi licence..=)

16. What was the last song you sang out loud?
when did i ever sing a song out loud..=/

well..if i did..i cant freaking rmb..=/

old liao..

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17. Do you have any nicknames?

Milli..dats the nicest one..

the others i not dat stewpig to tell u and let u guys use..=P

later u come and bully me with the nicknames..=/

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18. What does your last received text message say? Who was it from?
zzz...my hp is damn well aslp can..

let it rest..den i edit..rawr!!

edit: it was from my cousin..

one letter..it jus said 'K'

19. What time did you do to bed last night?
1130..

cos need to slp early for training today^^

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20.Are you currently happy?
currently no..

i jus freaking lost part of the bracelet i bought..=/

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21. Who gives you best advice?
wad is advice?

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22. Do you eat whipped cream straight from the can?
o.o

no i eat it straight from the cake..=/

more hygienic..=/

(like same difference..)

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23. Who did you talk on phone last night?
Err..my brother lor..

cos got sms i tink he talk cock..cos i dun understand..

so call and ask..=/

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24. Is anything bugging you right now?
no bugs ard me..=/

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25. What/who was the last thing/person to make you laugh?
dun even dare to mention it..=/

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26. Do you wear toe socks?
No.

question!! wad are they?

ps..i really dunno..not being sarcastic..=/

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27. Who was the last person you missed a call from?

My mum..

my hp lahs!!

tio water liao den no mobile coverage..kns..

why this quiz so many things abt hp de?!

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28. Have you ever had your heart broken?
err...commentless..

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29. What annoys you most in a person?
theri ability to disgress within 5 seconds..=/

their attitude..

well basicaaly..i dun even wanna go into details..=/

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30. Do you have a crush on anyone?
no..i nv crushed anyone..

though i tink i'm heavy enuf..=/

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31.Ever done cocaine?
nope..done hmk..done project..

none of them appears to hav the name of cocaine..=/

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32. What is the colour of your room?
white & occasional dash of pink..

no choice..room is dark..

need some freaking colour to brighten up the room..

lol..lucky more white den pink..=/

33. Would you kill someone you hate for a billion dollar?
it depends really..=/

i rather get someone to help me kill dat hated person..

and pay him off for a billion bucks..

dun really fancy sitting in jail..

dat guy can sit in jail in my place..=D

34. Do you believe in the saying ‘talk is cheap’?
yea..saliva is practically worthless..

thus talk is cheap..=)

35. Who was the last person to lie in your bed?
Err..me..and it will still be me for many years to come..

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36. Who was the last person to hug you?
Shirley..cos was trying to get her wet..=/

while preparing for the games jus now..=)

37. Did anyone see the last person you kissed?
o.o

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38. Do you have a life?
Err...i donno..

do u?

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39. Have you ever think someone died, when they really didn’t?
everyone dies..

come on..its either u or me..=)

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40. What is the reason behind your profile song?
Err..wad profile song..

didnt update..

so..not relevant..=)

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41. Who was the last person you saw in your dream?
Err..my dreams are all jumbled up..

but i tink i saw no one..

unless there exist a person with no facial features..

only a face..

den yea..dat is the person..=/

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42. Last time you smiled?
true smile..or wad typeof smile..?

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43. Have you changed this year?
i changed everyday one can..=/

nv change clothes later stinky..=/

well seriously..i tink i did a little..=/

a bit of the attitude..come on..

i'm not even shouting at my brother anymore lah!!

though seriously..i tink i went bonkers in dat area..=/

44. What are you listening right now?
Err..the sound of the tv whose words i cant catch..=/

something abt a hundread thousand dollars..

and the typing of the lapp!! ^^v

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45. Are you talking to someone when you doing this?
Nah..i do this with my mouth shut..=)

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46. Do you walk with your eyes open or closed?
Open when walking normally..

closed when slp walking..

but the thing is i dun slp walk..

i tink..=/

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47. Is there a quote you live by?
I am who i am..

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48. Do you want someone you can’t have?
yea.

some rich guy..

LOL..jokes..

nahh..i want something i cant hav..=)

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49. Have you ever played an instrument?
Piano... stopped in pri 4..

and whacked someone's guitar for fun^^

is dat considered playing a guitar?

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50. What was the worst idea you’ve had in a week?
catch no ball here..=/

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51. What were you doing last night at 11.00pm?
today or ytd..?

ytd i jus reach home ard dat time after work..=)

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52. Are you happy with your love life right now?
Yea..i got edah..yewey..jamie..

so many ppl..

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53. What song best describe your love life?
Err..u tell me lor..

cos i donno..=)

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54. Does the person know that you like him/her?
yea..dey noe..=)

edah jamie yewey..u noe i lik u rite..^^v

55. Who always make you laugh?
Jamie? mostly her ba..

and my darling wifeby..edah!!

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56.What language do you speak other than English?
Chinese...and broken teochew..

i noe its broken cos my mu always beg me to stop speaking when i try to speak teochew..=/

really pathetic..

or either dat she ends up laughing non stop..=X

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57. Favourite website?
Onemanga.com

em0inginmyworld.blogspot.com

heex..=)

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58. What's your middle name?
i dunno leh..

khi siao?..=)

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59. What are you doing tomorrow?
watching indiana jones with my mum..

bringing hp to see doc..

and going to work after all dat..=)

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60. What do you think you are like?
a human..=)

i really tink so..=)

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61. Who will you choose to die with?
Err..can choose one ah?

unfair leh..

i see who so suay hav to die with me lor..=/

62. Where have you been today?
Np canteen 1..pyramids & gymwerks..

Blk 51 in sch..

and home..

and the places in between there..=)

63. What game do you play often?
Cabal..and any other random games..

64. Who are you missing right now?
Err...i donno leh..=/

65. If you’ve to choose between friend & loves, who will you choose?
Neither..

i either hav both..

or nth..

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66. What are you doing right now?
are u stewpid or are u stewpig..

geez..why am i finding this quiz a bit wasting my brain cells..

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67. Which primary school are you from?
Admiralty Primary School

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68. Name 3 colours that you like?
Black black black..=)

and any colours dat goes well with black except PINK!!!

and bright colours..

i m contridicting myself..am i?

69. What emotion you like to show?
Emo FTW!!

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70. What is your life to you?
Something dat is super troublesome..

my life to me..is my own lah..

zzz.

71. If you have something troubling you, what will you do?
continue troubling lor..

keep to myself..

72. Who did you last chat in msn today?
seldom on msn one can..

73. Who do you admire most?
Err..dunno..me?

74. Which month are you born in?
JUUUUUUNNEE!!!!

75. How are you feeling right now?
I got this feeling dat i kinda had enuf of this quiz..=/

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76. What is the time now?
2050..

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77. Where are you now?
My own room larhs..!! the one with white and slightly pink walls..=/

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78. What colour did you use to dye hair?
Err...i nv dye my hair..

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79. Why are you doing this test?
was too bored..

now jus want to get this over and done with..

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80. What do you do when you’re moody?
Emo (dun even bother to change my brother's answer..)

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81. At which age you wish to get married?
Can dun get married ma..=/

sibeh ma fan leh..

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82. Who is more important to you? Love partner or friends?
Refer to question 65..ty..

83. Do you think you have enough confidence?
Nope.

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84. Who is the person you trust the most?
pls refer to the previous quiz..

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85. Do you believe in seeing a rainbow after a rain?
kaos!! yea lah..!!

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86. If you have a dream come true, what would it be?
I wish i nv dreamt dat dream..=/

87. What is your goal for this year?
not sure..

tink too much later hair all white..=)

88. Do you believe in eternity love?
no..

nth lasts forever..

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89. What feeling do you love most?
Emo..!!

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90. Do you really think its Global Warming now?
...can u ask sth worth thinking..

but yea..and there is bound to be something else after it..=/

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91. What feeling you hate the most?
the feeling of having to do this quiz..

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92. Do you cherish every single friendship of yours?
Duuhhh~

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93. Do you believe in god?
heng qian bian leh..

ta ma de..=X

94. Who cares for you most?
Me lor..

family frens?

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95. What do you think is the most important thing in your life?
right now..i donno..

i will announce when i noe..=/

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96. What will you bring when you fight?
myself..

nv bring myself how to fight..?

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97. What have you regretted doing in your whole life?
Err..i regretted regretting wad i regret..

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98. What would you feel when people no longer cares for you?
Ask me again when dat time comes..okays?

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99. What "talents" do you posses?
I hav talents?

wow..

didnt noe dat..=/

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100.What do you want now?
To slp..

and to rest..

and to hav a proper holiday without projects and all these shit..=/

ppl who are bored..

can start doing this quiz..

halfway i tink u guys sian liaos..=/

i kinda tink i wasted enuf time on this..

better go continue project stuff..

later nv finish i gg...

Monday, June 09, 2008

LOL..

was to do another quiz..

den irfan said not to read be4 doing..

zzz..

so no choice..

i asked my brother help me copy the quiz from irfan's blog..

and paste it here..

den i edit..

zzz

rawr!!!

lets start~

Name 20 people you can think of right now.

Dont read the questions until you have named the 20 people.

At the end of this, choose 8 people to do this.not in order.

(meaning i put 1-20 first, then randomly fill the spots.)

1. Irfan (cos i got it from his blog..LOL)
2. Jamie ^^v
3. Jehanne
4. Edah
5. Michelle
6. Melvyn
7. Wendy
8. Ken
9. HongWei
10. XiaoWei
11. Yewey <3>12. Janani
13. Asyraf
14. HongYi
15. JieYing
16. Morgan
17. Ying Min
18. Yong Jin
19. Ying Li
20. Jackson

No 9 -19 jus happened to be taken from my blog..=/

How did you meet 14 [Hong Yi]?

In Gls.

What if 9 [HongWei] and 20 [Jackson] dated?

Errr...abit off can..both guys sialah..

cannot cannot..

not possible..=/

Will 6 [Melvyn] and 17 [Ying Min] date?

Never!!

Describe 3 [Jehanne].

Err..my schmate-cum-classmate-cum-meimei..

pretty cute..and nice to be with..=)

in same course as me..

knew her on last day of my FOC..

and from den on good frens..=)

Describe 7 [Wendy].

My veri good fren..for like..almost 5 years..

abit like me short tempered de..haha..=)

likes to whack ppl..like me also..

she loves anime..

zzz..in BA..same working place as me..

i can go on forever..=/

but later i reveal too much she come after me...=P

What would you do if 18 [Yong Jin] confesses to you that he/she likes you?

Err...

i dun tink will ever happen can..LOL..=)

What language does 15 [Jie Ying] speak?

English..Chinese..

human language lor..

cos i can understand..=)

who is 9 [HongWei] going out with?

No. 10..=)

Who happens to be my nu er...=)

how old is 16? [Morgan]

Same age as me leh..

18..shud be..

when is the last time you spoke to 13 [Asyraf]?

during GLs 2nd training ba..=)

who is 2's [Jamie's] favourtite band/singer?

Err..good question..

Jamie wad is ur favourite band/singer?

would you ever date 4 [Edah]?

YES!!

i will..damn i'll be dat happy to..LOL

anyway..she's already my hubby..=/

or wife..either dat she is MINE!!!

wahahah~ rawr~ =)

would you date 1 [Irfan] ?

Nope..

my darling(s)/dear(s)..u noe who u are..

will kill me cos i will be stealing him from her..LOL

wahahaha~

is 19 [Ying Li] single?

the last i noe of..

nope..she is not..=)

would you ever be in a relationship with 11 [Yewey]?

I am currently in a relationship with her..

at least i hope..=/

lol..

haha..=)

Whee~

school of 3? [Jehanne]

NP LSCT pharm sci^^

same like me..=)

where does 6 live? [Melvyn]

In Woodlands..

cos we are living together lol..

cos he is my brother..haha..=)

what is your favourite thing about 5 [Michelle]?

She is human^^

lol..joking!!

i mean as in..dat the not the fav thing abt u..=/

not dat u are not human..=/

anyways..michan is like my older sister lidat lor..

sometimes she listens to wad i say and gives me some advice..^^

vice versa^^

have you seen 2 [Jamie] naked?

nope..

she appears clothed everytime i see her..

lol..

i dowan to see her naked!!!

rawr~~

there done..=)

okays..back to researching for project..

wait..i forget to tag ppl again..=/

taging wendy xiaowei hongwei yewey edah jehanne michelle ken

basically who wants to do this quiz jus do..rawr!!!

Sunday, June 08, 2008

was tagged by jamie..

but so happens i hav no ipod or mp3..

rawr~

so yea..

dun say i nv do..

i wanted to..

but cant..~~

hahaha...~

rawr!!!

was working on fri..

so nth nuch to say..

except for some additions..

there is pretty much the same..

haha..

and i still can rmb wad to do^^

now lets see..

ytd was practically lik games day can..

had bowling in the afternoon ard 1..

zzz..

my score is super super super pathetic due to 2 weeks of mal-practice..

zzz

wanna cry liao..

not a single strike in 4 games..

really pathetic..

almost can cry with frustration..

zzz..

no more triple strike..

can seem to get the angle anymore..

hais

mus start to play more and train..

else sure cmi one..

hav to at least win my dad den got chance to play in competition lor..

else i go tio thrashed only..

bleah..

den when we reach home..

i tink ard night at mayb 9 pm..

went to play mahjong..

haha..whole family play..

was pretty fun..

and of cos..

i won..

haha..

first full round i won 137..

den we play another full round only won 70 in total..

mel the biggest loser..

i love my tiles..

all so nice..

all same suit..

den each time is 60 bucks in total for dat round..

super shiok..

but..i lazy post pic..

got sth wrong with my USB..

connect lik nv connect lidat..=/

rawr!

was supposed to go bowling again today..

but cant book any lanes..

so do project..

and rite now..

my darling cabal character is busy punching stone golem..

zzz..

while i search for my project info..

heex..

Thursday, June 05, 2008

booooooooooo...
guess wad guess wad?!
CT are over baaabbbyyy~~
woo~
no elaborations..
but hopefully everything goes fine^^
.
ohhh..
after the CT went out to watch movies with my 2 dears..and irfan..
(srry irfan..wanted to include u in dear category..but scared u dun lik..LOL)
went to cineleisure and watch show made of honor..
went ard shopping to pass time too..
cos nth much to do while waiting..
den if i nv rmb wrong..
yewey bought sth cute..
jamie bought a ring with her name engraved on it..& also doggie tag rite?
irfan bought a ring also..but from different store..=/
milli bought a bracelet^^
heex...

now lets elaborate on the made of honour show..

well basically..

i was enjoying not the show..

but the fact dat i m bullying ppl inside^^

damn nice can..

cos i hold the popcorn ma..

den decided to feed yewey cos she not eating..

den i became veri evil..

i made jamie feed irfan..

haha..

looks damn cute can..=)

i did dat not only once lor..

is either i amuse myself or i fall aslp watching the show..

which i did..

cos the popcorn was no longer with me

so i cant play..haha

the popcorn scandal..

dey so cute lor..

den was laughing away in the cinema..

but overall i tink the show wasnot too bad..

considering the fact i only liked the last part..

though dat is also where i slpt..

haha...

after dat went to take neoprint..

was funni lor..

yewey and i decided to siam away at the last moment leaving jamie and irfan alone in the pic..

haha..

was so nice..

haha..

but yea..promised not to post the pics..

haha..i wont post..

but if u wanna noe how dey look lik together..

come find me or yewey..

both of us have the bigger sized pic^^

haha..

heex..

am i evil or am i evil..

psps..i clicked on the save button instead of the post button..

haha..no wonder u guys nv see^^

srry it was a late post..=)

Wednesday, June 04, 2008

Boooo...

tio tagged by irfan and jamie..

haha..since i cant get anything into my head i jus do^^

1. At which age do you want to get married?

Err..dun really intend to get married..but if mus rite..den be4 35 =/

2.Who is more important to you? Friends or boyfriend?

Err..everyone is impt to me^^

3. Who is/are the person/people you trust most?

Memememememe=)

4. Do you think you have enough confidence?

Nope..confidence not really found in my darling dictionary..=)

5. What would you do if you saw someone abusing an innocent animal?

Lets see..run to save the animal..

den if its a guy abusing..

whack his precious wadever..

if female..slap her?

dat is if i ask them to stop and dey dun lah..=/

6. Do you believe in seeing rainbow after rain?

I dun believe it..i've seen it..,and its prettaye^^

7.What is your goal for this year?

Err...improve in my studies esp chem..and..lidat lor..=/

8. Do you believe in eternity love?

No..no such thing..

humans die and feelings die with them..wadever lah huh~

9. Have you ever broken someone's heart that he/she tried to commit suicide?

o.o wad a question to ask..=/

10. What feeling do you love most?

Err..emo! ^^v

11. If one day your best friend and boyfriend quarrel, who will you side with?

see wad they quarreling abt..den join in the quarrel!

nah..jk lah..see lor..

but first thing first..

why would my boyfren quarrel with my bestie?

and why am i answering a question with a question? LOL

12.name one qoute u like or thought of?

There is no way to hide from reality..face it..or emo..lik me^^v

13. Do you cherish every single friendship of yours?

Duh~ stewpig question..

14. Do you like to hang out with friends?

Nono..i dun..

lol..if dun den i make frens for wad..seriously..zzz

15. What/Who do you think is/are the most important in your life?

i..me..myself..

first runner up will be my family..

second runner up..my close frens..

wendy jamie edah michelle jyan..well u guys noe who u are^^

16.If you were on a ship, your mother and your boyfriend (been together for 2 years) were knocked out of the ship, you only have one life float, who would you throw it to?

jump in and save my mum..

let my bf save me..

if cannot..

den jus die lor..since i will die sooner or later de^^

17.If your boyfriend were to two-time you, what would you do?

leave him..

let him be with the other person..

rather 2 person happy 1 sad rather den all 3 frustrated and unhappy and wad not..=/

18. If time were to rewind, when will you want it to be?

When i was born..

i dowan to be born blind^^

19.Have you ever thought that you've made the wrong decision & you're in a dilemma after that?

yea..i believe all humans face dat..

but face it..it either dat..or die..

20. Would you die for the one you love?

srry no..

i would live on for the one i love..

but dat is if i hav someone i can love freely..

okays..done..

now back to my darling immuno..

which i hav touched yet..

shhhh..

i going to mug..

seriously mug liao..

den can enjoy..

i wanna play my psp~~

ohh..

still mus tag ppl..

tagging wendy hong wei xiaowei michelle ken

mmm..

2 more papers to go..

pathology and immuno..

anyway..

pathology is cfm fail liao..

i haven study yet..

too lazy to study..

only did one chapter..

respiratory..

power rite..

dun intend to read anymore..

i will save my energy for immuno^^

anything but wss's lesson rocks^^

even chem..=/

Monday, June 02, 2008

haahaaa..

emoemo..

i tot i would jus say this..

since i was emoing abt this issue and its related issues..

i'm srry it seems dat i hav a large part in which i was wrong..

i nv tot things will turn out this way..

cos i nv expected dat..

i nv intend to hurt..

but i tink..

it still happened..

i'm sorry i was in the wrong..

i cant say anything anymore..

but i jus dowan anything else to happen..

i was nv trying to avoid..

i didnt noe how to react..

i donno wad to do..

wadever..

since ppl only see the exterior of one..

it doesnt matter anymore..

let me jus carry on be the bad guy..

if dat can clear me of the sins i've made..

i'll let it be..

i'l gladly be the bad guy..

i'll gladly be punished..

i cant say i had it good..

i could not concentrate on my studies or work..

i could not concentrate on wadever i'm doing..

i needed to sort it out..

i dowan to hurt anyone any further..

jus whack it in my face..

i'll deal with it..

my own way..

tears were dry from tearing so much..

tot it will al be over..

but everything is far from over..

its only the end of the damn beginning..

i dowan to lie..

but acting happy..

is wad i do best

i was really glad for wad u guys hav done..

but i jus cant show wad i'm really feeling..

makes me feel damn exposed..

cos i got used to hiding..

nth will change..

telling me to open up doesnt help..

nth will help..no one can help..

i donno why i'm saying all these..

but its one of my ultimate emo periods..

apparently..sharing things with ken makes me feel dat way..

but talking to him..makes alot of things clearer..though i felt worse den be4..

thanks though..

talking to u was better den bitter medicine..

apparently..u showed me my mistakes..

when i cant see them..

quoted from ken whereby he mentioned

"slaps from frens better den kisses from enemy"

true..i will rmb...

thanks lots..appreciate it..

dey say picture speaks a thousand words..

i tok to much..

so will let pic do the talkin..

pictures will be up...once ppl send me the photos..=X

ohohoh!!!

and milli got ppl to thank^^

thanks, in no specific order.. -takes deep breathe-

JamieAmandaIrfanWenliangJehanneZahidahMichelle

YewjiaShawnJananiHongyiYongjinWanyuShuiyuJoanna

MelvynMummyDaddyWendyJieshengXiaoweiMorgan

HongWeiJialiangZiweiMarieSherylin

-exhales-

for wishing me happy bdae..whether verbally or sms or msn^^ thanks lots..

thanks again to those who bought me my bdae pressie^^

thanks to -inhales-...

JehanneZahidahMichelleJamieAmandaJiaweiMorgan(daddy!)DicksonSamuelXiaoweiYewjiaDanielArnoldAsyrafHuifang -exhales- ^^

thanks for the psp^^

love u guys^^

Thanks mummy for the pendant..

Thanks daddy for the crystal neclace and the dinner on sat^^

mel u haven gimme anything..

u gimme den i thank u..bleah..

jiesheng also..kor u come back from tekong gimme pressie^^

lastly, thanks everyone for being frens with me^^

heex..=)

it was my favourite bdae^^

pfft~~

forth post today..

140 post in total..

tian ah..

i really boliao..

12 midnight le..

2nd june liao..

8teen liao..

i old le!!!

-sobs-

happy bdae to those who also having bdae today^^

p.s. the old part applies only to me..=/

Sunday, June 01, 2008

i hav no idea wad is wrong with me..

but 3 posts in one day?!

dats new for me..

i cant concnentrate on my studies..

i only managed to finish 2 chpters out of the 5 dat was going to be tested..

i m keep myself on track..

hais..

been either blog hopping..

or manga reading..

or spending time chatting on msn..

or staring in space..

or getting in bed..only to wiggle out again cos i tink i'm crazy..

or playing games..

or watching parts of movies..

or finding food to eat..

or drinking 3 cups of coffee in a day..

or opening fridge to find ice cream only to stop myself frome eating..

or going to forums and puttng up random posts..

or..

well..i noe i did alot..

but so little studying..

i'm so going to flunk my darling CT..

f***..hais

look at wad i've found~

too emo to study..

too tired of studying..

and no mood to do anything else due to headache..

all them together..

u get randomness...

in the form below..

i've found sth abt black~

Black is the most misunderstood color..

Saturday's color is black.Saturday's color is black..(no wonder i love sat^^)

Black is not a color, strictly speaking.

It is the absence of all color..(woots! absorbs all colours^^)

Black, and its opposite white, represent polarities.

Black absorbs all aspects of light.

While white reveals, black conceals.

It has come to mean hidden, fearful or bad experience.

It is linked to the unknown or the unseen.

(how true~)

In a positive state, black is seen as a restful emptiness into which anything may emerge and disappear once again.

It is also mysterious, providing a sense of potential and possibility.

(this is why i lik black~)

Black clothing can say "Notice me but do not intrude."

Black clothing can say "Notice me but do not intrude." (LOL)

back to emo-ing