Is this my existence?

Saturday, February 14, 2009

been quite some time since i blogged..

lots hav been happening..

i dare not go to the hospital..

becos whenever i visit ppl..

like my relatives..

my timing sucks like shit..

i go in..

cannot save the person anymore..

dats why..

this time i'm actually veri scared to go and visit Jordan..

when i heard wad happened..

ppl ard me was crying..

i wasn't..

it may seem like i'm jus hard hearted..

mabbe..

but i jus haven grab hold of the fact yet..

n moreover..

i dun cry easily..

cos i m veri logical in thinking..

crying doesnt help..for me..

and moreover..

i tink dat those who cry..

are does who accept the facts already..

i haven accept..i wont cry..

i wont accept..

becos i believe he will wake..

becos i believe..i wont cry..

i wont accept..

i noe Jordan works veri hard..

he needs rest..

he's resting..

but for quite long le..

jordan u need to wake up soon..

tai yang sai dao pi gu le..

many ppl are waiting for u to talk to them..

listen to them..

waiting for ur decision in things..

waiting for u to scold them..

to take exams with them..

seriously i dun tink u are going to slp until exams are over rite..

u hav to retake one more year again leh..=/

ppl are crying..

ppl are praying..

ppl are hoping..

ppl are believing..

ppl are worrying..

u noe..

Jordan..

how ever tired u are..

u could jus give a response u noe..

like just open ur eyes and ask those ppl to shaddup..

so dat u can slp jus a bit longer to relieve ur tiredness..

i m sorry i haven been there to visit u..

i noe u dun read my blog..

but who knows when u wake u suddenly decide to come visit my blog or sth..

i'm jus sorry i haven been to see u..

i'm actually putting off the visit..

i really dun like my timing..

if anything were to happen..

i tink many ppl cannot take it..

and pls ah..

i m not the type to cry..

so dun do anything dat will make everyone and me cry okays..

jus freaking wake up..

its v day le u noe..

how can dun celebrate v day one..

we all waiting to celebrate v day with u can..

yingli folding roses..

i tink..

heck..i pei u learn from her..

although mine will probably turn out like a lump of crap..

i dun say so much le..

i really pray..

dat God will answer my prayers and dat u will wake up soon..

with none the wiser..

okays?

its a promise dat u will wake..

and i'm looking forward to u fulfilling ur promise..

den i fulfill mine of pei-ing u learn how to fold roses from yingli..=)

happy v day Jordan..

happy v day everyone..=)