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Saturday, June 28, 2008

mmmm...

not been updating my blog for couple of days le..

no idea wad to say..

jus felt dat nowadays mood swing veri violent..

and coupled with sore throat & headaches..

really not a great combo..

results lik farking shit..

hais

to be expected larhs..

dun feel lik going near anyone at all..

so ppl srry for my crudeness..

but yea..

i need to be left alone at times..

dun come near me..

later u tio burn up..

fri was really..

i donno how to say it..

but well during path..

i was having this coughing spasm..

and throat pain..

dun dare to use voice too much in case it gets worse..

so well..

were goin thru this stupid CT paper..

and tio picked to answer question..

bai tuo lah!!

the whole class was super guai and so quiet..

pin drop also can hear..

so jus used smaller voice to read the freaking question and answer..

den this kns piece of -insert word- started to go ballistic..

and say..so soft nobody can hear u..

i cant even hear u so u hav to speak louder..

-insert word- u larhs..

if u cant hear me how come u noe i finished speaking liao den u say all dat..

and how u noe EVERYONE cant hear me..

u super thing can noe wad everyone is saying izzit..

pls lor..no one complain u complain for wad shit..

zzz..

well anyways..she wan louder so i gave her louder lor..

raise voice wad..scared she later cannot hear..

den come kao bei kao bu again..

and so wad happened leh..

"Mi.llison come here. I want to talk to you."

lol..i not ur personalised doggie cans..

and u wan to talk to me does not mean i wan to talk to u wad..

jus go lor..

and first thing she ask me is why i throw temper at her..

come on larhs..

u wan me to SPEAK LOUDER wad..

so i jus raise voice lor...

wad u expect..

u wan me to use microphone meh..

knn..

and she rattered on...

blah blah blah..

den she said..

"why have u changed? last time u were such a nice girl.

U can come and tell me if there is any problem.

The problem is with you or with me?"

...pls lah..i so lazy to answer her..

dun even wanna waste saliva answering her...

so jus shrug at every question..

cos i tink u will jus peng at my answers..

and den later refer me to dunno wad freak..

not so stupid to risk dat..

come come question answer time..

the thing is dat i nv change cans..

i all along is lidat ones..

is jus dat i nv show this side of me..

cos U changed dats why u can see this side of me..

and i was NEVER a nice girl..zzz..ur wrong for seeing me this way..

and quoting edah..:"my problem is in front of me."

really felt lik saying dat..but i tink later she heart atk i dowan..

and pls..u ask the last question is stupid ones..

the problem is CONFIRM not me..

so all dat remains is u lor..^^

dun tink u ask this type of question i will cfm say:

"oh the damn farking problem lies with the ex-nice girl me."

come on larhs..u say u dowan to see me throw temper..

dun cover ur eyes when i throw these temper lor..

lidat u cant see me throwing temper..

pls ah..

even my parents also nv say these to me..

dey jus lemme throw temper..

the most later tio kan nia..

stewpig..

but i wonder wad happened to hui shi..

she also tio..

but she is strong..^^

hope nth goes wrong^^

oh well..waste my time blogging abt such a person fallen grace from my list of great teachers..

back to doing more half-hearted report for pathology..

cos tio kan..

haven been doing any of the work she asked the class to do..^^

later she not happy again i hav to listen to all those crap again..