Is this my existence?

Tuesday, December 04, 2007

What the hell..not a veri good way to start the day..

was freaking tired and dad keep spamming me abt not slping in the SIM canteen..

while he sits there and read his newspaper..

why he have to care so much abt..

ppl tired cannot meh..

wth lah...

i'm already freaking pissed when i cant finish my CATS project and i didnt save it cos the stupid batt jus went out lidat..

den when i on it the internet connection was cut off..

f lah..

stupid lah..i wanna complete my work also cannot meh..

its lik i hav to do it and hand it all in by lik in less den 48 hrs tym..

cant i jus complete it all at a go so i dun hav to spend more of the shorter hrs to do and spend my holy tym trying to tink of how to freaking do this thing..

this is lik freaking irritating..

and den in the early morning nag and nag again..

buay tahan one leh..

cant find my CMB practical book and den wad..cant even rmb whether i got hand in my CMB logbook anot..

den later cfm one more tym tio pissed one..

INPH tio pissed off cos i dun understand wad the fuck she trying to explain..

the more she try to explain..

the more confused i gt..

den the rest understand and i lik the only fucking person dat cant get it..

den let her cont..

ownself read and understand liao she come confuse me again with some other f-ing explaination..

i had enuf liao..

i totally lik give up on the supid tutorial which i did till lik Q4 nia..

totally fed up with myself for not being able to catch up with the whole class..

den everyone lik doing till so happily and i the only one down there fuming cos i dun get a fucking thing..

now wad..i vent my anger on a piece of waste paper by scratching lines into it..

draw and draw harder till i tore the paper..

den she hav to come and ask me wad the hell i doing..

saying dat the paper is lik so poor thing..

i jus freaking stare at her and den she was lik asking me whether i'm angry at sth she done..

its not ur fault..

jus dat i'm stupid and not meant to be in this class.

jus lik wad my mum said..

only dat i dun tink i shud be studying at all..

cos i'm too much of an idiot..

now already so pissed off...

use the scissors to cr8 pain on my hands again..

but sian..no blood got the pain..

was so shiok..

damn..else i tink i would hav blown my top..

not to mention later still have chemistry..

i tink later will really burst out lor..

knn..even though it is lik 1 hr..

but i really cannot take it liao lah..

after the practical where all they do is yak and yak..

when all i wanna do is to be alone..

fuck it all..

fuck my stupidity..

and here it is where she ask me whether i'm angry at her..

and den i dun wanna even to answer her..

den michelle jus had to say dat i'm jus tired and went bak to asking her questions..

heck i'm not tired den..i was lik fucking, really and dangerous pissed off..

realise dat no one can understand me..

even though edah and jehanne tried their methos of 'cheering' me up..

but i tink practically its useless lah..

cos when i'm pissed..

i'm really pissed off..

i dun even wanna talk to anyone now..

and den now its lik OBC and den got this stupid audit i tink where a mrs or wad Chang is coming and see OBC lecturer i tink..

so much trouble and den its lik so so so so so...

i can safely say dat if anyone is going to pissed me off one more tym i tink i'm goin to kill the person..i swear it..

really really cannot take it anymore..

and den now its lik everyone is so freaking noisy and so teh now..

cannot take it...

better not let anyone tlk to me right now..

cos i will diao them..

and also i cannot take the way my grp function..

cos in the end will be so fucking irritating..

i hate all the ppl now..

damn damn damn damn damn irritating..

even though those who i'm always hanging out with..

everyone is getting on my nerves!!!!!